sometimes i wish i dun have heart, feeling n so on..

i'm fed up with all of this feelings...
i hate when i fall in love with someone but it ended with painful n heartbreak...
i hate when i like someone but it ended with s much humiliation...
i hate when i crush with someone it ended badly...
i hate when i kinda admire someone it ended with sorrow...
i hate when someone said he liked and love me with all of his heart and said that he's single and available but it ended with the truth that he was such a dumb, idiot and things that related with it and he cheatin me, and i just found about it yesterday...when his lover said it to me with proff, k? fine.
i kinda piss off!!
seriously...
cant he just tell me the truth?
why he lie to me?
why jhe said that he doesnt have someone special or lover or gf?
why he try so hard to makeme believe that he have no one else in his heart but me?
why i fall into his trap?
why he just a sweet talker?
how can he do something cruel like this?
how can he hurt me?
did i does something wrong to him?
i'm hurt...
sometimes i wish that i can turn back time and save myself than hurting my own feeling with fall in love with anyone..
i cant go on...
why sometimes i cant follow my instinct that said he just a sweet talker...
palyer...
kinda shame on me...i'm a fool who trapped in his lies.
i hate u!!!!
damn!!
i hate when i secretly felt special about someone it ended with betrayed and i really pissed off and sad...
i'm human...
i've got feelings and so on..
i felt scared and secretly hatred for people around me that dun know how to appreciate my feeling..