Dear self

Dear self,

Be you.

Sincerely,

Me.

Self notes; Syazana.

Sometimes, i wonder..

Who is the real me?

The nice & naive me

Who is softspoken, timid, full with positive attitudes & mindset

Or

The anxious me?

The one that full with doubts, thinking beyond what i should, panic attack whenever i surrounding with people

Or

The firm me?

Who is so passionate about her tot & believe. The one that will tolerate with those stupidity and excuses

Or

The ignorant me?

Syazana who is so indifferent with other

Manipulator : sometimes they'll succeed.

Secara jujur nya,seseorang yg hebat memanipulasi orang lain akan naik dgn cepat dan ada sifat yang sukar ditandingi.
Aku maksudkan sifat negative dan sifat keji.
Mereka tiada perasaan utk simpati/empati.
Mereka tiada masalah dgn kesengsaraan orang lain demi kesenangan diri sendiri.

Politic office

Semua tempat kerja ada politic office
Ya.
Aku dah habis positive dgn mereka

Aku letih
Penat
Hilang semangat

Orang boleh cakap tapi x alami dan x rasa apa yg aku rasa

Dia sebagai kawan memang bagus sebab membantu semua

Tapi sebagai rakan sekerja...
Dia boleh tikam kau
Buruk kan kau
Manipulate cerita nampak kau buruk dan create negative agenda about you
Dia guna kuasa yg ada utk tindas kau

Allah itu maha besar
Dia dah tunjuk haritu kebenaran
Then this manusia bertopeng (K) buat cerita lain,tekan kau dan pijak kau

Ya Allah
Aku dah buntu
Sampai ke penghujung
Beri kan aku kekuatan dan kebijaksanaan serta kesabaran utk menghadapi segala kemungkinan

K cakap dgn semua orang "I'll make sure she been kick of and terminated from this company! Mark my words!"

Ya
Dan dia dah berjaya letak aku di penghujung menggunakan kuasa yg dia ada

Kenapa begini?
Salah kah aku jujur dan ikhlas buat kerja?
Benda yg salah aku cakap salah
Benda yg betul aku cakap betul

Nobody can be trusted, including HR.
K and HR..
HR nasihat aku yg K x boleh nak terminated aku sebab aku permanent staff
Tapi semalam?

Allah..
Aku rasa sangat teraniaya..
Bantulah hambaMu ini
Sekiranya rezeki ku bukan disini,permudahkan aku mendapat tempat ditempat lain yg lebihkan performance drp emosi.
Aku xkuat ya Allah.

Aroma Ikan Bakar,Jeram,Kuala Selangor.

Assalammualaikum.

Kekecewaan terhadap layanan yg diterima dan perangai staff kat Aroma Ikan Bakar,Jeram
Is it really difficult for you to admit n apologize?
My fiance nak belanjan fmly aku..then aku suggest Aroma Ikan Bakar sebab tengok rivoew ok.
Kol 6.30pm my mum n alang datang dulu n make order.
3jenis ikan..sotong goreng tepung,ketam masuk telur asin.
Kami sampai lewat sebab drp tempat kerja masing2.
Abude tambah udang..so..ok lah. Sebab dapur n kaunter ckp oka.
Kami mula makan dlm kol 7.30pm..4lauk xdtg2 wlupun dah gitau dan jam kol 8.40pm dah masa tu..
6.30pm-8.30pm..logic ke 4lauk lupa nak hantar ke meja dlm keadaan sangat panas masa terima?
Dah lah banyak kali minta..
ikot hati nak cancel..tapi tunang 1st time dtg dan teringin..jadi kamu sekeluarga tunggu..
Lepas 3x minta baru dpt (dlm jam 8.50pm)
ok lah..xp..makan2...
Masa bayar tu cakap dah elok2 "dik..nanti pastikan lauk2 semua hantar lengkap..kesian org jauh2 stg nak makan.." dia maki kita balik. Cakap xinform.."eh..mak akak dtg aqal dan order..yg tambah cuma udang je dik" dia marah2 lagi..
stress.

Kadangkala Ianya Terjadi Tanpa Diduga

1st Nov 2013 will be d historical date for me personally...
4th n 5th another 2 historical date...
Perkara terjadi diluar kawalan dan jangkauan minda.
Pening memikirkan segala kemungkinan yg terjadi dan masa hadapan yg tidak pasti..
Kekeliruan minda dek kerana kealpaan insan lain..
Kerisakan yg tiada baginya pemulihan..
Kerobekan hati dan kedalaman siksaan di jiwa yg semakin mencengkam..
Kesedihan yg tiada mampunya diluahkan...
Kebencian yg tiada kegunaan..
Kesakitan hati yg merana mencengkam jiwa yg rapuh dan enteng..

Ketika aku gembira segalanya menimpa..aku xlayak utk bergembira..
Terima Kasih Insan yg membawa kedukaan semoga aku tabah didalam ujian Allah.

Kadangkala..ianya dtg menimpa tanpa kita meminta

Working Life as a young executive in d international company; MNC

You shouldnt b so happy when u have seniors who b ur staff yet ur age is same like their daughters. It is a challange.

Sometimes u need to stands on ur point

Working life is not always cheerfull and lovely...sometimes everything seems smooth and perfectly in order when things happen.

Unexpected things,bad mouth,backstabbed,n etc are samples of normal things in ur working life.

For me...it is a huge disadvantage for being boss fav.

Sometimes Karma Happen Later...after few years...

Few years back i was in dat scenario...i hurt..much~. Denial phase was really painful...it was d moment that u need some1 yet u dont wanna let anyone in..coz it really painfull and shamefull to share with anyone..
I know that facial expression..that characteristics..u r trying 2 hode yet u need someone assist..
U try 2 manuver those feeling towards other..it really obvious..everything u done is not helping any...u r struggling by urself..
It is not an ego..it is something dat hard 2 describe..sedih..right?
I went through those scenario..not once..yet too mny times...thing related with heart n feeling is something dat hard 2 describe..
I am really sad coz i cant assist u n i knew..eventhough i want 2 assist u much coz i do care   about u,if u denying my presents..i cant assist u further..u need 2 let me in dear...so i can give my hand for u to reach from d bottom of this unlimited sorrow..
Sometimes..u need 2 let someone in to pull u out.

Sometimes The Answer Is Not There

Do u ever query y ur life seems so difficult and full with obstacles? U seek d answer and thinking really hard y it is so tough for u to survive sometimes coz u just cant hold ur faith no more...

Sometimes It Hurt Me Much Than U Can Ever Imagine.

I hate doz people who love to speak about others but whenever people spoke about tjem they get offended.

I try hard 2 take care of other people heart. Much care n ofrely sacrifice mine. However,i realize now dat people will never care about ur feeling. Seriously. U r alone with Allah S.W.Tin diz world (diz is a fact).

People love to underestimate,curse,hate,throw negative feedback to u eventhough u don do dat to them.

Y? Coz I feel it now...

I am myself. Dont compare me with others. It hurt me much dan u can ever imagine. I try hard 2 be like i am now.

I dont hate u..i just pray dat ull u/std y.

Sometimes people is not what u think they r.

Sometimes It Happen Frequently

I am seriusly innocent.
Yes. I am.
Sometimes People Have This Kinda Thought; Young n will getting married so u will tend to skip from works. No! it is a big n huge No No No!
I enjoying my job,eventhough there were negativity going through n i am almost losing my grips,my confidence and myself due to ur accused. Allah will always be with innocent people...
I really hate those guys who love to talk bad about someone and talk negative about someone. However...Allah proved i am innocent.
I thought it ends there.
However...it happen..again. repeatedly. why? Am I ur fav objects to b played/toyed around? Is it really fun n entertain to playing around with my feeling?
Ya Allah...
Guide me with ur guidance...firm my iman n believe.

Sometimes (and oftenly done,actively repeated) the new person we met have similarity with someone u know previously.

Asalammualaikum and Good Nite!

It almost 3 months I worked here, in *LL ni. Seriusly! 3months?! Times goes by...faster than I ever imagine.

For all of this 3years in *LL ni I felt down in terms of morality n spritual. Yes. I know. I cannot simply send resignation letter n move on 2 d new company. I cannot spoil vacancy market coz right now there are too many graduated jobless. 

Yes,i has experiences,with MNC some more,it will be easy for me to find another job n been hired. But..how about others who are struggle n have no career just because they are new in market and just graduated? Interviewer often said 'owh,we need experienced employees. Especially in this job scope. If u yave any related experiences,then company will be consider'

Pity the graduated. Demand for job is increasing,rapidly! In the other hand,job offer/vacancy is lesser than demand. Pity u guys..

Thus, I need to be thankfull n gratefull to Allah for this opport7nity.

Yes. Eventhough byk sangat bebudak ni perangai sama dgn yg previous staff,sabar je lah..kan?

About boss plak..nothing similar lah.

I has 1 staff. She has working for more than 20years there but..she hate younger boss..for her..younger boss know nothing n st*pid. Seriusly..i had through one situation: she taught me how to do billing. n said the superior is stupid dont how to calculate prodit n blablabla (i felt like dejavu..did i experienced this before??) n when u r in their place dont forget to do dat n diz n blablabla(profit lah kan). Then i go n secure biz,i quoted as advised before..u know what?? THE SAME PERSON WHO TAUGHT ME HOW TO DO BILLING IS D PERSON WHO CUT OFF THE PROFIT I SECURED WITHOUT MY AGREEMENT!! 

Memanglah marah. So angry. However..i still can talk with her politely. But she scolded me n said something not nice lah kan.

I said 'sis,u d one who taught me how to do it and now u said this was wrong? then why u scolding me? what is the main purpose? u shd scold urself back because u are my teacher. U said i am this and that wasn't it reflecting urself also dear sis?

Forgibe for my mistakes mdm,n thank you for ur guidance.

And she replied"no!! u are wrong! i am not!! n bla2..whatever lah...

I am fed up with ur attitude mdm..kindly follow my quotation n guidelines. This is an agreement done betwen me,boss n cust9mer. U cannot simply deducting it according to ur mood. thank you.

U know what? She told to HR manager..n I m now officially.......?

Dont wanna said. Wslm

New Employment: New Policy

I haven't update since last employement: GTSB.

Now, am back to shipping/logistic back :). no more call2 centre ni. pergh...hard to cope ok. How lah people can work in a call centre. It really stressed out okay! Salute to all CS at Call centre!!

New company ni okay. However..biasa lah. Office politic.Semua tempat ada..kan? Ha..Jgn tpu!! Ada okay!!
Hihihihi. Kita memang ada politik pejabat di mana2. But...however...sometimes it happen too much...and we really hate it. Much222!!!
So..i decided: biaq p lah depa. asl gaji aku xterusik dan halal. Itu je.
Next Entry will be about my working life ♥

Sometimes We Don't Have to Struggle To Own Something

25/10/2012: I just sent resignation letter> 1 week notification (so that they can find replacement for me).
I thought that self will be happier when I saw all those surprise faces, but...no. I'm sad. Sometimes what we thought will not be exactly as it should be.
Before this, I thought that nobody would care as much as they show today when i sent my resignation letter. Yet...I'm totally wrong. some of them have tears in their eyes, said "don't go,stay her, work here" "u xsuka kerja sini kah? xbest meh?" "kita ade buat slh ke till u nak resign?" my reaction: Speechless. Really don't expecting all of these type of reaction.
I only working with them for the past 3 months. Yet we are close...maybe that is why they felt like lost something important.
Sometimes I wish they can understand me before I issued this resignation letter. But...
Everything was done and can't be undone.
My pray to Allah:
"Ya Allah, jikalau bukan rezeki dan bukan tempatku, biarlah hamba-Mu ini tdk di senaraikan didalam temuduga sekali pun"
Allah heard my pray and answer>> I'm shortlisted for interview session
Then i still doubting my skills and myself, and I pray:
"Ya Allah, jikalau jln ini bukanlah utk ku, hamba-Mu ini rela di gagalkan didalam sesi temuduga"
Allah heard me and answer>> I've been hired as what I'm wishing for.
And I?
Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah, you heard my pray and give me the path, self will take this responsibilities and move forward.
Sometimes, we don't really struggle...?
No. This is my faith and I will move forward and explore everything :) 

Food while u are in the air ;). Healthy food ;)

New Job :)

I once said I'd rather work in the win - win situation surrounding with less office politics surrounding, didn't I?

1st day in Brihgton,England

Sometimes,the uncertainty is better than firm decision

when it come....... hm m.. IFeel so confuse.... This uncertainty.... part of me feel d excitement of having someone who really love me more than own self... Yet...part of me feel insecure... Horrified...doubt...is he does need me or he ust playing around? Hm.... Part of my trust is his...though,part of it is not... I really wanna try to trust him...shd I? Hm...it is tough when it come to feeling...kan?

SoMeTiMeS i CoUlDn'T UnDeRsTaNd My OwN aTtItUdE ;(

Sometimes I couldn't understand my own feeling, my own mindset, myself ;(. Bila hati dah terlalu yakin dan penuh dengan syg, cinta perhaps, then suddenly I transform,change my feeling (more to prevent my feeling from be overwhelming with all the love things, worried to be hurt again). Heart felt like "why lah boleh syg orang lagi ni? kang luka lagi,kecewa lagi,camne? T nangis2 loagi,camne??" Hm... Memang lah..baru je ahad aritu rasa macam di awang-awangan and happy yg sangaaaaaaat2~~~~, tapi tiba2 kenangan2 buruk dan kekecewaan membayangi perasaan ini...dgn my-exs' ;(. Aku faham, he's not them,yet...my heat is too fragile...things seems wrong... Hm...

SoMeTiMeS hEaRt Is NoT oUrS tO cOnTrOl

Heart n feeling... For certain person,it really ease to control,monitored and keep it safe,yet... for me...for this time...i'm in the part of certain people who can't control

their own feeling ;(. Right now I can't control my feeling. It seems like i'm fall in love,again. Hopefully he will not hurt my feeling like others did. It's hurt. It's hard,really hard for me to really fall in love again. However... Sometimes we couldn't expect future. Hopefully his love for me will last till death tears us apart... I pray to you Allah, may his heart is really, genuinely , truthfully , sincerely love me coz of You Dear God; Allah Al-Mighty. I think i'm prepared to let my heart be his...Yet, will not let 100% r...kang frustrated lagi,susah!! Mau trust no one dah nanti. Huh!

Dearest Sis...

Dearest Sis...
Thanks for your guide...
Thanks for your nagging (Seriously, that's why u r my sister, hehehehe - that's why i love u soooo muuuuuch)
Thanks for your advise...
Thanks for your continuously reminder about life...about works...about me...about love...about the reality of life and hereafter...Love you sis, with all of my heart :) XOXOXO sis :)

Dearest Sis,
Without you, i feel empty...I don't have anyone to talk, to share everything, to argue (hehehehe, most of time, we always have different opinion and always quarrel kan? Tapi...tu yg buat I miss you so much! Bergaduh@selisih pendapat sebab I Know, you always right and usually I can't acpt the fact lah sis ;p hehehe)

Dearest Sis,
Do you know that in this world, no one could even a lil to be your competitors? Because...for me, you are the best sis in this world, I can't even think to change you with others.
Do you know that I always want to be like you:
Independent
Matured
Systematics
Positive
Full with wise opinion about everything
Great daughter to our beloved parents
Great leader for our family (hahahaaha, especially when the second daughter is a bit pampered and dependent with you like me ;p hehehehehe - I take time to adjusting myself when you married with someone who love you more than anything in this world, susah taw jadi kakak ni bila kita selalu jadi manje2 jadi adik bongsu walaupun xbongsu ;p hihihi)
Firm with your decision
Assured


Dear Sis,
I'm sorry if:
I can't be like you to lead our siblings...
I can't be as mature as you are in this short period of time, i need time to be mature sis...
I can't pleased our parents as you did sis, I just can't figure the right way of doing that ;p
I can't be as strong as you are, I 'm too kind and always being bullied and previously, you always be there for me to support me (eventhough with your nagging, hihihi, miss it taw sis ;p hehehe)
I can't be a strong branch for our siblings to hold on due to i need time to organize myself that use to be kiosk, massive and inmature, hihhihihi ;p


Dearest Sis..
No matter what will happen, you are my only beloved sis because you are my flesh and blood. No matter how others love me, it will not as complete as your love ;) I know there are too many people who love me out there, it just can't be as same as you did..because you know me for this 26years and will continuing counting the figure, till death brake us apart dear sis.

When Your Mind And Heart Is Back To Normal

Previously...I'm really pissed off+frustrated+sad+avenge+grudge+stress. That's why my blogs seems so many dramatic words+phrase+harsh words which i think some of them is not appropriate. Apology for those words and so do my attitudes...
Now...when my mind is back in track, I'm apology for those words and statement that either directly or indirectly hurting anyone in anyways of wound...sorry...

Supposed, I shd shows the high degree of maturity in handling this situation, however...i can't control myself...seriusly...I can't at that moment due to anger is controlling my mind and myself (regret it)

Immature Human Will Act Like A Child

Aku tidak berapa nak matang, namun aku faham akan suasana dan keadaan sekeliling aku..aku hanya insan lemah sekiranya Allah tidak menyayangi dan mencintai aku. Aku hanyalah manusia yg lemah, namun Allah anugerahkan aku akal yg matang...cuma kadangkala aku tidak mampu untuk menidakkan kata hati yg mudah sayangi orang...aku tunduk pada simpati ini untuk orang lain..aku ikutkan rasa kesian kepada orang dan insan lain...
Tapi sekarang..hati ini terlalu terluka untuk mudah percaya insan lain lagi..perasaan ini sudah menjadi debu2 bertebangan yg di tiup angin dek kerana pecahnya kepada serpihan2 disebabkan kecelakaan orang lain. Aku trauma, aku menyesal, aku letih, aku benci untuk mempercayai orang lain lagi.

Hati Manusia Yang Sukar Di Fahami

sesungguhnya Allah menganugerahkan aku hati yg sangat lembut, mudah syg, mudah kesian , mudah setia pada sahabat.
Namun..hati org yg selalu aku layan bagai saudara, yg aku syg sebagai sahabat, yg aku selalu temani ketika bersedih, yg aku setia hiburkan tatkala berduka selalu sukar aku fahami, selalu mereka menikam aku kembali. Setelah ditikam nya belakng aku, di curah dengan segala fitnah, di ludahi dengan makian dan cacian, aku hairan.
Betul kata kakak kandung ku, betul juga kata adik2 aku, begitu juga kata2 ibu dan ayah ku yg bahawa dengan sesungguhnya, mereka bukan darah dagingku. Mereka tidak akan menyayangi aku sepertimana keluarga ku mencintai diri ini walau aku sayang dan layan mereka2 itu dengan baik sekali pun. MEREK HANYA MEMPERGUNAKAN KEBAIKAN KU!!. Ya..betul...aku dah taw dah...
Seringkali org melakukan ke atas diri ku..namun aku kali ini betul2 melukakan hati aku, kerana aku menjadi sangat baik dengan mereka, aku temani yg adik ke mana sahaja si adk mahu walaupun aku letih, sedangkan si kakak tak berapa kisah dengan si adik. Aku setia mendengar setiap luhan hati si kakak dan memahami diri meraka yg baru kehilangan ibu. Aku menenangkan hati mereka, aku juda setia mendengar hati si sahabat kakak mengenai kehidupan dan sebagainya. Si Sahabat kakak yg mencintai suami orang, yg selalu moody, yg aku tidak berapa nak kisah.
Aku hairan...dimanakah kesilapan aku? Mengapa mereka bertiga begitu kejam melakukan perkara begini kepada aku? Aku hairan...
Mungkin pada permulaannya si sahabat kakak dan si kakak adalah sahabat yg sangat akrab, yang 9 tahun persahabatan mereka..tetapi itu tidak bermaksud mereka ada hak mengadu domaba dan memfitnah diri aku. Aku di katakan mengata si adik tidak mampu membeli camera cash, aku tidak mungkin akan katakan perkara sebegitu kerana mereka sangat kaya (setakat yg aku kenal meraka selama setahun), mereka sangat mampu utk apa sahaja namun mereka tidak matang..anak2 org kaya yg kurang pengajaran tentang dunia realiti..yg tidak pernah hidup susah, yg hanya tahu meminta2 daripada ayah atau mak mereka jika kekurangan wang, tidak macam aku...aku dan semua anak2 yg berasal daripada keluarga sederhana dan miskin...kita kaya dengan ilmu dunia dan akhirat..kehidupan yg susah, kehidupan yg sukar, kesempitan duit, kekurangan masa utk berehat kerana ingin mencari rezeki dan sesuap nasi. Kita berusaha utk mendapatkan apa yg kita ingini dengan niat tidak mahu menyusahkan sesiapa..
kita Matang dengan cara kita sendiri..
Kita menilai seseorang dengan cara berbeza dengan orang2 kaya ni..mereka sangat mudah lupakan sahabat ketika susah..mereka mahukan sesuatu yg menyeronokkan, yg mudah dan menggembirakan.
Aku menyesal kerana percaya yg setiap manusia berpeluang utk menjadi lebih baik dan layak utk di kasihi. hakikatnya: Ada yg memang tidak layak untuk menjadi sahabat aku. Ada yg tidak tahu menilai mana kaca mana permata. Kebodohan manusia ada yg memang azali dan tidak boleh di ubah.
Aku mempunyai:
Keluarga yg sangat menyayangi aku, yg sanggup melakukan apa sahaja demi aku. Yang menyayangi aku sepertimana aku adalah aku.
Sahabat yg setia (Yg boleh di kira jumlahnya kerana aku dah mula menyesal dan trauma dengan kehadiran insan yg bergelar sahabat penikam belakang)
Diri aku sendiri yg sangat unique.


Aku...aku akan menjadi diri aku yg lama...diri aku yg sangat aku ben\ci..yg mana aku sendiri tidak mahu kembali kepada Syazana yg kejam, hati dingin, pandanagn yg tajam dan dalam,yg tidak mempunyai hati dan persaan..Argh!!! Tidak...Aku adalah aku sekarang! Aku akan bertahan supaya tidak kembali kepada aku yg dulu.

Allah love me than anyone else, that's why Allah give me this huge test. Allah want me to be more matured, closer to Allah, love Allah even more, bring me to the right path back.

Welcome Home Dearest Parentz and Sis!!

I'm happy!!
Excited and feel blessed :)
Thanks Allah coz of your blessing, you granted my wishes by brought my family safely to Malaysia :).
Yesterday, 13/6/2011@6.50pm: My parents check out from arrival cubicles :). Seeing them make me excited and happy, then arranged things in cars: my parentz with Syafiq and my youngest sis with me :).
As expected, she talking - talking - talking all along journey to our home town: Tg. Karang. She really happy to comeback home yet sad due to leaving her "mama" at Brighton, UK.
She told me every little things that happen, from she arrived there till she departed to Malaysia. She herself has 1 box full with toys and games with intention that her siblings (especially abang2 dia ni) will accompany her to play all the toys and games ;p hehehe, comey taw my sis ni :)

The Most Valueable Things: Family

I love them, with whole my heart
I worship Allah and thanks to HIM for my family
I adore people who love and take care of their family, parentz (especially the sick/ old parents) without any regret and give their attention, cares and love with whole their heart
I envy people who has big and huge tight family relation ship due to my family is not that big in numbers :(, but...9 of us (opssss...10 including my bro-in-law) is still big and huge, right?
I hate people who less care of their family (maybe they has bad memories and been treated badly in passed..i dunno..)
I'm cursing people who throw their family members due to issues of money/spouse words, properties, and other materialistics things

Miss u sooooo much!!

Miss both of my parents soooo much due to they flight to Brighton, UK to meet my sisters who lives and work there with her hubby.
Aish...usually when i've some problem or any thing come up, i'll go back tg karang and see both of them..
No need to say anything. just come back home and see their face..listen to their mumbling and nagging and voice can release the stres(weird, isn't it?) but for me...
they are MOST VALUABLE ASSET and PROPERTY and they are my life :).
as for this lil girl, i really miss her :). she like to smile and vry talkative. will tell me everything about her, about hr friend, her activities, even about our pets at home.

damn!! Miss them soooo muuuuuuuch~~~

Parents blessing for their children is important

Children...
Without your mum nor your dad, u will not be here..in this world.
Without their blessing, we will end up miserably...
Dearest Children,

You should thanks to Allah because you still have chance to love them, shows your appreciation, hug them, felt their warm love and touch..

You should thanks to Allah coz you still have opportunity to speak to them, listen to their bubling (hahahahaha, this is one of the way for your mum/dad to communicate with you), listen to their advise and experiences..

You should thanks to Allah coz you still have parentz compare with other who lost theirs..

Life Is Unexpected

Life is unexpected.
We'd planned for something, yet we ended up with something else.
We'd hate something, yet we end up doing it.
We'd adored something, someone, yet...we end up to be hated by them...
We'd like to do something, yet we end up to screwed with it...
We thought we good at something, yet...we master something else that we have no idea that we capable to do.
We felt like we the only one who were suffered and hurt..yet..there were someone else that suffered 10 times more than we did...