Sometimes What We Really Wanted Will Not Granted and Things That We Don't Want.....

I do excited to knew that I'll go on the deck,Bunga Raya 1..
Yet,I'm dispntd...We can't go on board without any specific reason.
I wish for some field trip...because it seems I can't bear any static situation right now,especially I'm working in MISC...or,known as MISA..
I'm not sure either my decision to abandon my interview for placement as Officer(Dg 41),Govt Servant was right or wrong...I'm sad..mourn...i felt like it was a bad decision...kan?
Sometimes when i needed something so bad, I'll choose other path,which I regret it then...
Sometimes,it happen when the situation surrounded me with those cold and harsh theme...